keeeerols: (Sho =D)
[personal profile] keeeerols
after the me-sick-worried-about-my-family post last time I'm afraid this one is not getting happier ;~; (my family is ok tho and that's good)

today for the rest of the world it's April fools day but for me? April's first is my ojiichan's birthday.

My ojiichan is japanese so every year my family, as in dad, mom, little brother, obaachan, ojiichan and me, go to a japanese restaurant where we all eat dinner, me and him are the ones who will only eat sushi until we can't eat even a single grain of rice anymore, and he drinks his whisky, he never drinks except on his birthday and in the end of year festivities. Then we'd come back home, sing happy birthday with a little cake and give him his present before he goes to sleep, normally this present is a piece of clothing, pajamas or shirts. Of course my mom would go crazy around us, with the camera in her hand, screaming "let's take a picture! let's take a picture!". Normally I pose for the pics and then start to get a little impatient since my mom always like to take 10 more than the necessary. 
ne how much is the necessary? What if photos are the only things you have left? I bet that 10 more would be very far from necessary. 

this is year is different...I began April fool's day crying. Crying because today is the first anniversary since my ojiichan passed away. It's strange how things remain so certain for some time, I already knew what I would be doing on april first: the same of every year, dinner with family, cake, present, photos. And somehow things just change: this year the only plan we have is to go to his grave *Oh gosh it's incredible how actually writing things down or even saying it out loud makes it even more painful*
I guess I'll just let the day pass, like it or not it's just another day and than another day come after it. Life won't wait for us to get better, we just have to live and keep the memories dear to us.
this is the letter I'm taking to his grave tomorrow

sorry for the sad post guys...I just needed to get this out of my system I even cryed a bit more while writing this. It's good to cry in time like these, you give away a bit of the hurt inside you


Date: 2011-04-01 09:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
*hugs you tight*
Awww~ I don't really know what to say to such events... I am not really that good in the confiding zone, but I feel you.

This reminds me of Yoko's 413man... :|

Date: 2011-04-01 09:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Awwwwh, Kerols, I'm so sorry to hear that ): *hugs you* I know how sad it is losing a family member. Time will heal everything, dear. Stay strong! :)

Date: 2011-04-01 02:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

How about keeping the celebration tradition alive?

For example, you'll visit his grave first and then afterwards go to the Japanese restaurant to eat?

That's what we do in our family. After seeing our relatives at the cemetery, we go out to eat and have fun.

If you make seeing your grandfather a happy thing, then you'll look forward to seeing him next year and now be as so sad?

Date: 2011-04-02 07:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I'm sorry to hear that ):
But i agree with ayumi_kitty that time will heal you.
What i do to cheer me up is just talk to him, my grandfather died when I was young, so i never got a chance to know him, but i always give out mental shout-outs to him updating him on my life.

Date: 2011-04-02 09:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Ugh. WHY WAS MY NET CONNECTION SO CRAPPY WHEN YOU POSTED THIS!? Kerols-chan ♥ You're lucky 'cause you had memories with your ojii-chan. I never had with mine. :( I'm sure that wherever our grandpas are right now, they're friends and they're drinking whisky together :). I bet he's so proud of you. *hugs*

Date: 2011-04-03 07:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
awhhh bby -huggles tight and showers with love and Sakumiya rabu-

don't worry about it, its hard I know -nodds- but it's life and all we can do is try our best to make sure our relatives that have passed away can see us smiling :3 but cry if you have too, don't bottle up all the sadness in you, you'll feel better if you let it all out

Gambatte bby!! I'm here for youuuuuu~~ muwah!<33333


keeeerols: (Default)

April 2011


Most Popular Tags

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated Sep. 26th, 2017 03:43 am
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios